The pop princess is back on track. At least so it looks like. Underneath her sexy image, Britney is still a lonely person.
In the MTV documentary “Britney: For The Record“, which was screened in the US on Sunday night, the singer told the world about how she feels, about how sad and lonely she is.
Although her latest album, Circus, has been waited by millions of fans, she’s still not happy.
I can’t blame her! How can you have a personal life with all the media around you, chasing you, following your steps?!
Her dream? “That would be heaven for me, to have my kids on an island and a man and no-one could get to us. That’s my thing. When I really love somebody I really love somebody. I give my all. I can’t get enough. I need to be around them all the time. It’s just the best feeling in the world when they give me that feeling.”
Britney broke down in tears when the questions were talking about her and her controlled life:
“You can’t really go there in a complete state of happiness because you’re scared it’s going to be taken away. So it’s better just not to feel anything at all and to have hope to feel the other way….
When I tell people the way I feel they hear me, but they’re really not listening. They hear what they want to hear. They don’t really listen to what I’m telling them. It’s bad. I’m sad.[...] I used to be a cool chick and I feel like the paparazzi has taken my whole cool slang away from me. Like going out and doing stuff and like seeing a guy and hanging out.The way I used to live, I was a pretty cool chick, and I’m not really that anymore.
About her life with Kevin Federline and the dreadful divorce, the singer said she wasn’t thinking clearly but wasn’t doing drugs: “People started thinking I was on drugs. You would think that I would have gone home, I would have taken the kids and I would have gone to Louisiana. I think back now and I’m like, “Why didn’t I in that fragile of a state?” I’m breastfeeding one kid and the other one’s with me and I have a nanny. Why didn’t I just give up and go to Louisiana?”
About the famous “head shaving” episode Britney says it was a “a little bit of rebellion or feeling free. People thought it was me going crazy and stuff, but people shave their heads all the time.”
She longs for her children, she longs to live in New York, where her kids live with their father, Kevin: “My babies’ daddy lives there, so that’s why I have to be there. I can’t go there (to New York) for too long because I go there and then it starts to hurt because I can’t stay there for too long, because it’s not real. [...] Everything is coming together right now. I’m ready to make this a really good phase in my life. I choose to be a happy person. I choose not to be a bitter person. If I have a bad day I get really angry with myself. I have no regrets because I think everything happens for a reason. I just have to look back and say it is what it is and learn from my mistakes and just listen to my instincts more.’
Also, Britney says she’s not a victim of success: “I’ve been placed in that category, for some reason. I hate that because I like to see people making the most of their situation and being positive. I’m a true believer in that it’s all in perspective and let’s be positive, and let’s do that. And me sitting here complaining and stuff like that, I hate it. I hate it when people do that.”
Here is Britney on the X-Factor.